WHAT IF I DIE TODAY
Sitting on my sofa,
The sky was full of dancing stars,
The sun playing hide and seek with the clouds
There sat I
Pondering about life,
Flipping back the pages in my life's book...
through my short life existence,
I asked myself this intriguing question
"what if I die today?"
Not of fear but of curiosity,
Not of hopelessness but of purposefulness,
Not of depression but of appraisal,
What if I die today?
All Men must die
…that's certainty…
but, no man knows the hour when death shall strike.
I am not afraid of the afterlife,
I am more concerned about what I might not achieve with my breath.
I have actually considered suicide so many times.
Those were dark times that felt like life wasn't fair to me.
when I was at the University,
When my grades were not hitting the right octave,
When I felt betrayed by a close friend
I rose up against those periods, I fought for life…
Ultimately, I chose life.
I don't want to die today,
I still have dreams to pursue,
I don't want to die today,
I have to give back to my parents who helped shape my life,
I don't want to die today as I still have a lot to accomplish.
Only God knows the last mile of the way,
Only Him knows when it's time to say Goodbye.
But, before I get to the last mile
before I do say goodbye,
I want to make sure my life is worth living,
I want to ensure that I have positively impacted lives,
I want my life to be an expression of kindness and care in the world.
What if I die today?
I have died so many times.
Everytime I gave up, everytime I lost, I actually died INSIDE
That is the greatest death
But I did get another chance to live again,
to dream again, to fight again
I won't waste this chance of living,
I am going to live it to the fullest
I'll keep challenging myself everyday, with the big question
WHAT IF I DIE TODAY?